Heavy Heart

(From mom)

            Yesterday was Mother’s day. I am just so overcome with gratitude for my role as a mother. I have 3 beautiful and amazing children that I feel very humbled to raise. Being a mom is not easy but it’s so rewarding. It’s been a rough 3 years for our family and although we have not had the best of times I’m blessed.

Today my heart is full of sadness and grief….. On Friday I found out that a sweet little cancer warrior just 3 years old lost her battle with cancer. I was just heartbroken as it was 2 days before mother’s day. Then today the day after I heard of another cancer warrior who lost his battle, he was just 5 years old. I have heard of 6 maybe more little angles losing their battle with cancer. As I sit and ponder how well Reece is doing and how well she has been throughout this journey part of me feels like it’s not fair that some children have to suffer so much and another part of me feels very blessed. I am so torn and heartbroken every time I hear of a child getting their “angel wings” (as cancer mom’s like to call it). I can’t imagine losing one of my children and hope that I never have this happen. As we are coming to an end with this journey Reece has endured, I find myself getting anxious and started having unsettling dreams. Her last treatment is this Wednesday. Reece is also nervous about being done, or better yet this not being over and having something else go wrong.  After treatment on Wednesday we will have 3 weeks and she will go in for testing and have a CT scan and an ECHO. I am hopeful and pray that all will be clear. She is very excited to “ring the bell”. This is something she has been wanting to do since this journey started. I will say that before this I didn’t hear or know of many people who were battling cancer but being among this “group” I hear and know more people than I can imagine.

Tonight I will pray for those angle children who fought hard in their short lives. They were put on this earth to do great things and although they suffered much while here I feel they touched the lives of so many people in ways we will never forget.

#goteamReece